Archive for January, 2006

Chinese New Year

Friday, January 27th, 2006

festivity for the Spring and Lunar sprinter,

feather of hope and fashionable chapter,

fare you well my odd fellows, the cold winter,

for what i left,

fuel my rightful heart with warm and prosperity,

wishfully, moving forward,

leave behind the memories of lie and adversity,

let be kind to the ignorance & malicious, the envious, the fickle-licious, and the green greedy creatures,

for my fool will be the misfortune for those in filth and felony,

nevertheless,

the red packet of excitement is around the loud corner,

shall do no wrong unless wrong doing i shall,

for my right to live is to be responsible for the trap i make better.

Trapped

Thursday, January 26th, 2006

trap in the life we make free & better,

trip over the same ladder we climb higher,

trick by our own fate we seek to weather,

for reality is objectivity,

own by our subjective conspiracy,

is a game we play for winning,

by losing our self from within,

is an option we select,

not a choice of intellect.

Crackers Head

Friday, January 20th, 2006

Socrates

Did u read my blog? I got 2 new entries.

Crackers

Head

Not yet, lemme see

Socrates

:P

Crackers

Head

Same style

Socrates

Of course, style is self assertiveness.

Crackers

Head

Nothing new compare to previous entry too.

Can u say something about ebay?

Socrates

Comparison is never the aim here, but comprehension of compulsive character in play.

Crackers

Head

Readers are the key when u wanna published a book, they wanna see something fresh

Socrates

Yes, you can say replaying of Shakespeare over and over again is no use, and human quests for the history are being abused, and inquisitions into ancient knowledge of Aristotle and Pluto are wickedly amused.

Characters make us different, fresh and new, which you failed to see.

What you want to see is news that’s new everyday but common same of black & white and poorly subdued, but what you do not see is the richness of everyday life being renewed by perspective hue.   

Crackers

Head

Reality

Socrates

What is real is merely the structural truth that lies in the hand of those lived and living but existence is what the world failed to see and ignore, but often lead the subtlety of quality of new and freshness in life

Crackers

Head

So u need to be exist 1st, , go home make prawn crackers :D

junk mails

Friday, January 20th, 2006

offensive invasion of privacy, triggers the defends of precious property,

act of filthy pirates, illegal attacks from the foul dirt ignorance of stingy cactus,

sudden joy for new delivery, disappointed by the same old parcel of conspiracy

spam is the game, play by the unwanted names,

authenticated identity is just wishful thinking, false hope for bargain hunting,

undervalued opportunity is abuse of used value,
opened risk to over promised capability and dignity undue,

winning is a mental lost,  to those unauthorized block of loathing ice and boring pot.

The Relative Silence

Thursday, January 19th, 2006

Silence

You ask a lot of questions

Socrates

To know is to ask, to ask is to answer

Silence

But these are anything interesting…or will it help u to find enlightenment

Socrates

I won’t know coz anything can be interesting til it is not, or vise versa.

You can’t find enlightenment if you are enlightened, you can only be enlightened when you are in the dark, that is to see questioning, not answer, but answering questions

Silence

Hmm… interesting point of view.. but sometimes it is best not ask too many questions.. questions can lead to fear

Socrates

No time is the best time, time can’t even be measured into good or bad, but fear to question will not lead to questioning of fear, so fear itself is a question, not an answer

Silence

Fear comes from the answer of the question and time makes the fear worse.. due to emotions…

Socrates

Fear doesn’t come to you, you go for the fear, fear itself has no meanings til you give one, so fear is given, not taken

Silence

I agree that fear does not come to u, but due to questions asked and answered or unanswered that leads to fear.. so questions r the main cause.. like people ask about death…and life after, it is answered brings fear to people about dying, or if they r answered it leaves them in fear due to the unknowing

Socrates

Nothing is due til you ask, nothing is ask til you answer, nothing is answer til you know, fear is merely a game of structural text, the reality that insert into you beyond your existence of nothingness, is the plot for the society so you remain fearful and become a well behaved citizen

Silence

Life wouldn’t be life without experiencing fear, love, hope, hate etc. Life isn’t a life just with meditation and spiritual words 24/7

Socrates

Live without nothingness is a life you live awake 24 x 7 without sleeping, resting, and all the same happening. Meanings won’t discontinue and history remains as history, future doesn’t exist if nothing being transcended

Nothing is what make something, something don’t make something, you just keep getting the same thing

Silence

I disagree..

Socrates

you can disagree to nothingness and agree to something, but at the end it will be the same thing

Silence

Then what’s the difference

Socrates

Is not about the different, is about what you see. What is relative, what is in perspective, what is transcendental, what we do not see, that’s matters.

Silence

Everything matters in life and existence does it not? Nothing is minor to something else, because everything is information and something we can learn from

Socrates

You can’t learn everything coz at the end you will learn nothing, but nothing is what leading you to learn something, and eventually become everything and all thing that exist in life

Silence

But who can learn everything, sometimes it is there with great significance.. but can go totally unnoticed.. so not that it is to be learn from but to be acknowledged

Socrates

You just said what I’ve said a moment ago ‘is not about the different, is about what you see. What is relative, what is in perspective, what is transcendental, what we do not see, that’s matters.’

Silence

i g2g.. this is taking a lot of time.. Bye bye

Bill No. 4

Monday, January 16th, 2006

Bill

What’s your job?

Socrates

I work with the super logic of numbers, people, process, customer, supplier, market, marketing, mark at bad things, think about what’s good in thinking, make all things better, bet at becoming the best of the beasts.

Bill

But you’re not happy?

Socrates

Of course not, Existence is merely a joke and replay of repetitive self, coz that’s how you make yourself useful, sellable as a product.

The capitalist system is about putting more hours to work for less, that’s the basic concept of profitability. The structure consumes you to merely a robotic self, defines you to sheer numbers and all things measurable, and put you to among others into a pull of commodity, to be roll, pick, squeeze, and throw away.

Bill

I so agree, man, I’m actually really tired of all this. I think I’m reaching the end of my shelf life(AHHAHAAHAHHA)

I’ll be glad when they throw me away. I just hope I’ll be numb enough not to feel anything when they do

Socrates

Well, there are 2 groups of people, 3 types of behavior and 4 counts of action.

No 1. People who exist and people who live.

No 2. People who live will be more happy to be within the structure because without the routines, process and systems, they can’t see themselves being alive. People who exist are divided in 2 camps.

No 3. First camp, they exist, but they rather live in the structural world and suppressed their existence They constantly struggle within their own internal conflicts and often too ill to live properly.

No 4. Second camp of those exist aloud, proclaim their existence, although they are usually labeled as societal waste, destined and doomed to poor beings, but historically they had contributed significantly to the knowledge of civilization and human consciousness.

Bill

Which do you belong to?

Socrates

I started with No1, chose No 2, realized I do exist, curious, confused, despaired and slipped into No 3, recovered and opened the door No 4.

Being Eva

Saturday, January 14th, 2006

Socrates

Tell me more about yourself :)

Eva

Me, hmmm… ask and I will answer :P

Socrates

What u study?

Eva

i study fashion design. Its like a breath of fresh air every time I work. I am happy that iIve found something I truly enjoy

Eva

Yourself? An artist? Philosopher?

Socrates

Are you asking me as a structural identity or existence?

Eva

Existence

Socrates

I am a dream catcher

Eva

:) have u caught anything worth hanging on to?

Socrates

Well, is damn easy to live a structural life, but then if you are born with retarded consciousness, aware of your existence, and worst, being nothing, you can only be a difficult dream catcher.

Eva

Do you really see yourself that way? A person with altered consciousness? I don’t’ believe in nothingness. You are looking, discovering, thinking. that is not nothing

Socrates

Yes, but that is existence, the question is who or what is ‘looking’ at existence

Eva

Is it not enough that you are looking? Is discovery not a qualification in itself?

Socrates

Discovery is self existence, but existence only exist in the mind

Eva

:) We must see it differently then.

Socrates

but for the sake that one exist, the Being must therefore ‘exist’

Eva

mmm.. food for thought. Are you really this dissatisfied with life? Are you dissatisfied? Or am i interpreting this incorrectly?

Socrates

No no, dissatisfaction is not my aim, demystification yes, deconstruction of structural life and existence

Eva

Demystification. interesting point of view

Socrates

Yes, discovery is journey to examine life, and to do that, literally you need to deconstruct

Eva

i always thought structural life and existence should work with each other

Socrates

yes, is disparate, meanings separate but loosely integrated

Eva

Deconstruct… same as self reflection? Same as societal perception?

Socrates

No no

Eva

Then?

Socrates

Deconstruct is a methodology to deimage what we see as structural reality. Deconstruct is to methodically destruct, self reflection is a consciousness mirror.

Eva

Your words,  your meanings, … i need to think

Socrates

No no, don’t think

Eva

I think too much maybe

Socrates

No, just that words have no actual meaning besides being the structure of historical context

Eva

Historical context is important

Socrates

Existence should be separated from structural reality because that is the only way we can move forward

Eva

And what is your structural reality?

Socrates

Things that we see, objects, image, text, everything that make up the history, Include language

Eva

Yes

Socrates

Existence has no form of all these, but then existence itself is no ‘use’ unless it serve to ‘play’ a role

Eva

They need each other to exist, therefore, i see it as a unison, rather than opposing elements

Socrates

Yes, in a way, you ’see’ it, because there is the third eye seeing it, the Being which suppose to contain Nothing

Eva

I am speechless… impressed actually. u have thought about this from every angle

Socrates

yes, it took awhile, wasteful 14 years dear, no, is 15

Eva

haha. 15 years is a long time to be mapping this out.

Eva

now, i have to go and rethink

Socrates

Don’t think, Nothing is worth thinking ;)

Eva

lol. tell yourself that :P

Deconstructing Alan

Saturday, January 14th, 2006

Socrates

Alan

I can’t believe you actually exist in Singapore, are you?

Alan

Socrates

Exist in Singapore? I guess. Would prefer to exist elsewhere (muaahhaha), or maybe i am existing elsewhere. What do you think about it? I never felt like I was living after I came back here.

Socrates

Alan

mm, yes, from the way you sounded just now, somehow or rather you still exist, and that’s amazing, especially in a ferocious structural atmosphere

Alan

Socrates

YES. Totally. What to do? Everybody has to play the game, otherwise you lose! And then you can’t go back to where you left yourself either. A lose lose situation.

Socrates

Alan

yes, is a choice, not an option

Alan

Socrates

So what’s an option? :)

Socrates

Alan

Either your mind exist or the world is not

Alan

Socrates

I would prefer the world not (AAHAHA), but maybe it doesn’t la, just go mucking around everyday and being so pathetic, eventually it doesn’t exist.

Socrates

Alan

yes, because existence is a lie

Alan

Socrates

you mean like in matrix terminology? (AHHAA)

Socrates

Alan

yes, that’s the analogy

Alan

Socrates

Do you believe in a similar analogy? When you die, your existence becomes painfully real, because you lose it. Why not be aware of it now?

Socrates

Alan

Because is a lie, and Being is the guardian for all things exist in Nothing

Alan

Socrates

That’s if you believe there is no purpose to existence.

Socrates

Alan

No no, there is purpose in existence, and the purpose is about Nothing

Alan

Socrates

Even if you take the very most basic purpose?

Socrates

Alan

Yes yes of course, Nothing produces something, so all things must have start from Nothing, even the bright universes are from dark matters

Alan

Socrates

Science says that we are here to reproduce, but of course if we don’t, that means we defy purpose, and then we exist for nothing, not sure we existed from nothing…

Socrates

Alan

Yes yes, but science is structural, the world, which is independent from our mind, our existence, Being and Nothingness

Alan

Socrates

Actually, I did feel that way. Well…. No! I still feel that way! But you know, people drown it out by doing things to distract themselves like they know they’re going to die … They not sure what the purpose is, so they get busy and do everything they need to do to distract them from that morbidity

Socrates

Alan

Yes yes, existence give meaning to life, and itself is a titanic theater

Alan

Socrates

So what do you do to distract yourself? It seems to me, you’re constantly reminding yourself of this morbidity instead. I can’t do that, I might end up killing myself

Socrates

Alan

No no, the meaning of life is to know Nothing so that you can live to do something useful

Alan

Socrates

How can you do something useful if you know nothing?

Socrates

Alan

Yes, yes, for instance you won’t know you are happy unless you are in pain, no pain no gain, and no gain, no game

Alan

Socrates

Yes, sometimes that’s true

Socrates

Alan

Yes yes, all things are in context, but context itself is Nothing

Alan

Socrates

if you don’t strive to achieve something and get hurt in the process, you don’t feel like you’re living.

Socrates

Alan

Yes yes, this is exactly what I just said, but you put it into different context, is Nothing, but at least you say something

Alan

Socrates

(Hahahah) it’s really interesting talking to you, one of the rare few I ever manage to talk about such things to. :)

Socrates

Alan

Yes, yes, because we are boring people, so we know what interesting means to us.

Alan

Socrates

(AHAHAHA), exactly! :P

Socrates

Alan

Yes yes

memory of love

Thursday, January 12th, 2006

Memory, pause, play and replay sensory story,

for the reality of NOW,

is back to what happening THEN.

In retrospect, is not that you are my everything,

is just that nothing about you worth anything,

beyond all things i used to thanks giving.

What distinguished us disguised us,

throught time and travelling space,

thought still remaining at the same old place,

though never occupied mass or weight.

Memory becomes just a sticky waste,

masquarades like a shadow with no face,

only the trace of the past and haste.

news are new common same

Monday, January 9th, 2006

Everyday, what we read in newspaper seem to make so much sense, from headlines of big lies, from hazards to wizards, insights to out of sights.

We read about how news bring new justice to old practice, i.e. like ‘contractor could be charged with negligence’, and revealing of some kind of fact in mystical way like ‘is the rm1 billion man for real?’.

Everything and anything is to do with villains and millions, sometimes billions. Stories revealing some sort of open secrets of others so distance but yet sounds like your typical neighbors in dealing with having a good bet or a runaway pet. Release amok like a childish wild cat craw digging out slag waste and smell for its taste. 

This is how the reality is cooked up, either serve in hot like a sizzling news or cold like a case of abuse. Reality is beaten, hammered and inserted alive to our mind to make up the dead storeys of our structured society.

The society is built for housing the just world by telling the same old stories new.

The just world is a jumbo life theater playing the daunting drama to provoke our fear of falling over the guilty fence with nothing left except for how to play the sedated script right.